I've had a lot more time to think lately. During wedding season it's go, go, go—there's literally no time to do anything else but get stuff done—but this slow season has given me a reprieve from that breakneck speed. I've loved having some down time and working on projects that have been put off for far too long. What I didn't realize though is that my mind would really start to wander to dangerous territory when I had extra time on my hands. Having more time = looking at more photographers' blogs, spending more time on social media, etc. My mind wanders and, even though I know it's so ridiculous, I compare myself to other photographers. She's doing this and I'm still stuck back here. He's got a new website and mine just doesn't live up. It makes me insecure, and I feel like I'm standing in a hole just deep enough that I can't get out.
Recently I've been really aware of this rut (or hole) I'm in and have come to realize that this is just part of life. This comparison game will follow me everywhere if I let it. It can travel into my personal life and I can start comparing my life to other's. It's called being human. It's my decision to focus on the positive—on what I'm accomplishing in my time—and trust that God has a plan for me and that it will unfold as it should.